Identifying Ours
At first, every potential situation we opted out of felt like a direct challenge to my willingness to be sacrificially courageous...
A Boy Named Wyatt
There was a boy. He'd been in the NICU and was ready to go home. But this tiny baby was in need of a family. And we just so happened to be looking to adopt...
Embryo Adoption FAQs
"Snowflake Baby" is a term commonly used for children who were adopted as embryos. This symbolism is not only applicable because embryos are frozen (-320℉), but is also a sweet reminder that embryos are unique and fragile, just like a snowflake.
Adoption Update
We have officially completed all of the home study requirements and have landed on a direction to move forward! Here's a brief announcement about what type of adoption we will be pursuing...
The Beauty of the Process
Yet the stillness forces me to see what's really there, deep down in the dark recesses of my broken self. This time, the stillness revealed the vulnerability of wanting something I have absolutely zero control over...
Plan A
And yet, when I look back at that couple, I don't see weakness or failure. I see strength and triumph. I see a husband and wife that were committed to finding their way back to for better, when for worse ferociously pummeled the wind out of their sails...
But God.
This morning I had a mini breakdown over an email that was returned as undeliverable. Through welled-up eyes, I struggled to make out the letters to double check that I had typed the address correctly. I just kept going over it, one letter at a time, again and again. As though somehow staring long enough would create an error where there hadn't been one before. Normal[...]
When Hope Hurts
...It is something we haven't slipped into for a very long time. And it is painful. Like skin freshly released from the shelter of a cast suddenly aware of the subtle movements of air, it physically aches to be wrapped in the susceptible fabric of desire. The cloak of resistance beckons...BUT GOD.
Waiting Again
Initially, I had thought this update should be held off for a few more weeks. I guess to a degree I figured by then we'd have the home study finalized and I would have more clarity - specific answers - for all of the questions I knew were looming. But I realize that more than anything, that's probably what you really want to know - where we are in the process, and wha[...]
Maybes
It's not as though you are walking around on the verge of a breakdown every day. The ache of infertility is a constant drip, and just like anything, you learn to manage it. To have joy and live a full life in spite of the hurt.
There are several occasions that you know are going to be a challenge. Some you can even brace yourself for ahead of time, or maybe even tr[...]
A New Chapter
Last November, we made an announcement, informing all of our friends and family - and likely even some strangers - that we had officially taken the first step to begin the adoption process. If there is anything we have learned in the past three months, it's just how applicable that word "PROCESS" would turn out to be.
On This Daysemi-sweet morsels
I granted myself a hiatus from writing over the summer with the aim to pick up with it again once autumn arrived. In looking at the calendar, I may have missed my cue. However, we've been in the 80s until a few days ago (and still in the 90s just a week prior to that), so my seasonal awareness has been just a little off. Grace granted.
I'm not going to lie, this su[...]